Khadijah

hmmm....
berfikir sejenak utk tulis blog ni...
should or shouldnt i?
tpi akhirnya tulis jugak...

so citer die camni..
dalam kete naily tadi terjumpa satu buku..
tajuk 52 tokoh islam yg bijaksana ..
(sebenarnye aq x ingat tajuk yg betol... tpi lebih kurang macam tula bunyinya)..
selak-selak.. terbaca pasal kisah isteri2 Rasulullah SAW...

first sekali mestilah die cerita pasal saidatina khadijah...

so sebelom aq mengemukakan pandangan aq setelah baca buku tersebut..
nak cite sikit lah...
dulu aq selalu pikir camni...
"nnti nak kawen ngan org yg kaya, dah ade kete, rumah sume,
senang... "
tpi bila baca pasal isteri kesayangan Rasulullah ni buat aq terfikir sejenak...

Nabi sangat sayang khadijah dan die satu2nye isteri yg x pernah dimadukan oleh Rasulullah...
masa khadijah meninggal dunia... rasulullah sgt2 sedih utk bbrp tahun...
dan Allah izinkan baginda berzuriat dengan khadijah sahaja bkn isteri2 lain...

so buku tu terangkan betapa mulianya khadijah ni...

tpi kalo tgk balik sejarah khadijah ngan Nabi..
dia lah org pertama yg memeluk islam...
masa Nabi bukan sape2... khadijah lah yg setia membantu dan menerima Nabi seadanya...
die korbankan harta, jiwa dan raga utk Rasulullah...
so mmg die berhak dapat tempat sebaik2nya di hati Rasulullah...

hmmm...
kalo dulu aq pikir nak kawen ngan org yg kaya, dah ade rumah kete sume,
sbb nak hidup senang,
tapi bila baca buku tu,
aq rasa,
jadi macam khadijah lagi best,
bersusah payah dgn suami,
support and jadi tulang belakang dia,
bila satu hari nanti sama2 dah senang,
kite akan lebih dihargai.
gitteww.....

tapi tu pendapat aq je la...
ckp pakai air liur bolehlah..
taip pakai keyboard senanglah...
cuba buat... tgk sikit boleh ke x?
lel...

hmmm....
tpi cam dah xde option je...
nak jadi "trophy-wife" cam x cukup cantik..

huh? "trophy-wife" tu apa?
ohhh....
die biasenye applied kat org2 cantik je...
cam laki biasenye akan pilih org2 yang cantik...
soh bini die dok kat umah...
berhias... supaya die boleh tunjuk2 kat org yg die ade isteri yg cantik gile...
camtulah lebih kurang,...

so.... hmmm...
tu je la kot...
terasa nak tulis ape yg bermain difikiran lepas baca buku tu...
and maybe nak bagi option kat gadis2 diluar sana...
x semestinya kawen ngan org yg dah senang tu boleh buat kita bahagia..
mungkin kalo kita cari org yg kite sanggup susah bersama2..
bila dah senang nnti... kita akan rasa lebih bahagia...
tapi pokok pangkalnya... org yg kita cari tu kene la baik, hensem, kacak bergaya, tinggi lebih 180cm
so xdelah die tinggalkan kita bila die dah senang nnti...
hmmm....

this rant have no flow at all...

aq pernah post pasal bila umo aq 21 tahun...

bapak aq dah bagi greenlight utk ada 'kawan' lelaki...

well...

i'm 22 now..

and.. still single...

the things that worry me the most is that i dont even care if i have one or not..

listening to my friend recently breakup's story really makes me think twice...

what should we do in order to maintain that relationship?

whose fault is it that things are not working out as it meant to be?

mungkin patot berbalik kepada asal.. back to basic..

sbb hubungan tu dri awal lagi Allah x redha...

so nak kekalkan tu mmg susah...

well.. point taken..

"tapi ada je org couple dri sekolah men. berakhir di jinjang pelamin and bahagia sampai sekarang"

hmmm... kalo yg tu camne plak?

sbb ada sorg kawan aq ni..

die couple ngan suami die dri sekolah men.

suami die sambung belaja oversea lepas tu..

sekarang dorg dah kawen and bakal ada anak...

kawan aq tu nak kata baik sangat xde la...

perangai gila2... mencarut pon dulu boleh tahan gak...

cantik boleh tahan,... tpi xdela cantik sangat...

tapi suami die boleh setia...

even long distance relationship pon hubungan dorg masih kekal...

if this fact matters.. suami die tu good looking gak... pandai pon pandai...

x mustahil kalo ade org nak sailang die...

my friend is such a lucky girl to be able to meet someone like that.. huhu

tpi macam mak n ayah aq....

dorg bkn ade bercintan cintun bagai pon...

bapak aq sangat direct orgnye....

"awak ada kawan x? kalo xde jom pegi beli cincin skrang.."

lewls...

mak aq pon speechless je jumpe org camtu...

tpi mak aq ckp die terima je sbb nampak bapak aq dah serius...

xde ayat bunga2 bagai... 

straight to the point...

bapak aq ckp die dah prepare duit dalam 500 utk beli cincin (time tu 500 kire banyak la gak)...

tpi mak aq pilih cincin harga 100 lebih je...

mak aq ckp die xnak nampak cam pisau cukur... lewls...

masa nak hanta rombongan meminang lagi kelakar...

mak aq xtau pon bapak aq nak hanta rombongan...

bapak aq pon xtau sgt jalan nak gi rumah atok aq yg kat pagoh tu camne...

die main redah je....

masa rombongan dtg... atok aq terpinga2...

dah la mak aq xde kat pagoh masa tu....

die tgh keje kat tiram....

kelakar je bila dgr dorg citer balik....

tpi dah jodoh... mmg x kemana....

apa point aq nk citer sebenarnye? lewls...

entahlah.... 

bila dgr pasal lelaki curang... buat aq rasa takot ngan kaum lelaki....

xsemestinye yg muka nampak baik tu sebenarnye baik luar dan dalam...

dan x semestinya yg hensem akan curang.... yg x hensem xkan curang...

bak kata cheput...

"yg hensem diayat, yg x hensem pandai mengayat"

bapak aq ckp..

cari laki yg biasa2 je...

yg x alim sangat sbb nnti die akan kawen 4 (sorry he's a bit stereotype)

asalkan yg jaga sembahyang cukupla...

xyah kaya sgt... nnti x sekufu plak...

well.. sampai skrang aq masih x faham camne kategori 'biasa' yg die maksudkan tu...

dgr bdk2 laki ckp...

"aq nak isteri yg x kuar malam, x lepak2, sopan santun"

hmmm.... cam terasa ada gak...

kalo sume laki camtu aq mungkin xkan kawen sampai bila2..

but i convinces myself "at least i'm not pretending to be kind.... what u saw me is what i really am...."

ape aq mengarut ni.. efek x cukup tido+perot masuk angin la ni...

sebelom ni aq ade tulis blog title "Shinwa Broadcast n Curang"

-quoted from the blog-========================================================

aq tergerak hati nak tulis blog ni sbb tertarik dgn salah satu episode dlm shinhwa broadcast..
MC tu tanya...
" If your cheating girlfriend ask for your forgiveness just this once, what will your answer be?"
" 1st option: since its only once, I'll forgive her"
" 2nd option: Eventhough its a mistake, it is still wrong. I cannot forgive her"
kalo korg... korg pilih mane?

Masa MC tu ajukan soalan tu... jawapan aq ialah 1st option...
tpi aq tertarik dgn statement Eric (salah sorg Shinhwa's member)...
" I choose 2nd option. If later we got married, there's chance that it might happen again, but its to late to be reverse. So i cannot forgive her"
lps dgr explaination die bru aq terpikir... "haah ek... belom kawen boleh la maafkan... tpi kalo dah kawen tibe2 die buat hal yg same lagi... lagi parah... baik break sebelom keadaan jdi lebih teruk.. hmmm"
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persoalan ni bermain kat fikiran aq sekali lagi...
what if it is too late?
what if that thing happen to me when its already too late?
what should i do?
hrmmmm.... buat masa skrang ni aq cuma boleh mintak dijauhkan je dari bende2 camtu....


high agaknye aq ni...
dah citer blog ni xde flow...
sekejap ckp pasal ni sekejap pasal tu...

sebelom kawen...
aq ingat nak gi korea,..
nak gi konsert kat korea...
lepastu aq dah boleh settle down and get married...
tpi aq x sure bila agaknye cita2 aq tercapai... lewls..
ada plak camtu cita2 camtu ...
sori la dah terkpop sejak kecil...
susah nak buang habit..

aq suke tgk kpop...
tpi kalo dpt laki kpop..
geli gak...
seyes...
aq kpop xpe...
laki aq xleh kpop...
atleast terbendung sikit gejala kpop aq ni kalo kene marah ngan laki yg x kpop...
lewls..


setiap kali raya...
mak aq mesti akan nangis kalo mintak maaf kat bapak aq...
she's a good wife...
aq rasa pon aq akan menangis setiap kali mintak maaf kat laki aq...
sebab air mata aq ni air mata drama...
xleh syahdu sikit... mesti nak mengalir....
payah betol jdi sensitif ni...

seyes blog ni xde flow....
ape aq mengarut ntah....


hmm....
hmmm betol, hm salah,
so segitiga sape skrang ni?

Final Year Final Semester

lama x update blog...

wow...

xde ape sgt nk citer...

hrmmm...

sambil menunggu fajar menyingsing...

bolehlah mengarut kejap kat blog ni...

bukan akan ade sape sgt pon yg akan baca...

sipook je la kot...

lewls...

well..

baru je habis paper utk final first...

hang out ngan final year final...

karok..

borak2...

dgr lawak hambar...

main teka teki...

this kind memories will surely be kept in my mind as one of the good memories....

senior dah grad...

so sekarang dah jadi paling senior...

rasa cam kosong je bile dah xde senior...

xleh nak tanya2..

mintak tips ke apa...

maybe apart of me knows that the end of my student's life is near...

and soon i will become like those seniors...

and that makes me kinda afraid sbb masih single lagi...

afraid what's coming...

and what i'm gonna do with life...

will i ever find a good job...

will i ever earn enough money...

hmmm....

yup that's all...

so segitiga sape sekarang ni?

Tonight.. I'm a happy fan~~

Ok...
I have to admit that this really makes my day~~
hihihihi....
I'm a happy noona fan!!

I still like rain though...
i still like his music and movies..
but he's quite old now...
and twitter might not be his 'thing'...
even i mention him thousand times...
getting a reply from him might be impossible..
besides, he already have kim tae hee..


So what makes me happy tonight??
here's the thing...
GOT7Official organize an event...
which the account will be handle by each GOT7 members each day for a week..

So.. starting from Mark (24th June 2014)...
i've been mentioning each member vigorously everyday...
hoping to get a reply from them...

Finally on the very last day!
I GOT7 A REPLY FROM IM JAEBUM!!!
Yeayyyyyyyyy....
I've known him since dream high 2..
but only started to like him since JJ Project together with Jr...
eventhough my bias is the flying Mark..
but getting a reply from GOT7's leader still makes me happy...

Not to mention that i was actually in the class during the Q&A event...
and i vigorously send my tweet to GOT7Official..
luckily i didnt get caught by my lecturer.. phewww~~~

From those thousands of fans that keep mentioning them in twitter..
i can say that i'm lucky...
getting a reply from a kpop singer is not that easy...
i've been mentioning rain since the past 3 years.. i know...

so this makes me really happy..
u know the feeling of having your crush favorite or reply your tweet...
it kinda feels like that.. but happier!! kekekeke~~
kamsahamnida JB!
noona will always support you!
GOT7 Fighting!!!

here's the screenshot of what he reply to me..

I'm 22 years old..
been a kpop fan since i was 12...
old habits die hard i guess....

for some reason..
i'm afraid that my daughter or son will become like me...
huhu...
but i'll become an understanding mom..
u can like them... but there's still will be some boundaries that u need to follow...

So as i was babbling about this...
i still have to finish up my lab report...
and do some tutorial's question for tomorrow's class...
life as an engineering student is hard...
sigh~~~

Lastly, THANKS FOR MAKING ME A HAPPY NOONA FAN JB! (n_____n)

Jaebum : "I didnt really do anything noona..."

GOT7 FIGHTING!!!!!!

whatever~~~